Ears to the Sky, Eyes Elsewhere

Even in the beginning,

Before any were sinning,

Before sin was in the world,

Adam was lonely

without a girl.

She herself wasn't enough

By herself.

But then

Neither was God.

The first Man walked and talked with I Am,

But he still felt lonely and unfulfilled

On an 

empty, 

perfect planet.

So God, in all His wisdom,

Created a companion.

Someone for conversation and understanding.

Because really how can an artist interact with a painting

Or an actor with his actions on stage?

The Creator is not the same as the created,

So He can satisfy some needs,

But all are not satiated.

I need to seek out more spiritually

But i won't drop the candle that's leading me.

Because i can hear His still quiet voice in the darkness

Leading me home,

But i'll still feel

lost,

cold

&

alone.

Pretty Lady (Or Retch)

the very thought makes me sick to my stomach.

nauseous at

the fact that

you aren't mine

and could potentially be

someone else's

"pretty lady"

Real World Vow (+End)

This is a man's world
Time to cut the boyish shit
Adulthood has been here long
And I have just been avoiding it
Getting my Peter Pan on
And on
And on
It's time to end that story
Move forward
Snip my ties
To young society
And tie my ties
For the sake of propriety
Here's where I decide
To leave the past
I knew inside my heart that wouldn't last
Forever
However
Let it be known
That although I'm going off on my own...

I'm changing
But in the future whoever I become,
Whoever i am
Je t'aime,
My love,
Je t'aime.

Dream Girl

what do i do
when i can't stop dreaming of you?
visions of melting,
melding
together of skin
touching lips
kissing
muscles rippling
bodies smooth into each other
flashing images
of flashing eyes
and squeezing thighs
i feel and hear
sighs on my ear
and shudder like a fallen leaf
i feel your delicate fingers
caress my chest and abs
my heart sputters
a million miles a minute
i feel your soft hands
i see your soft eyes
i know it's not real
but im dizzy in ecstasy
so i tell my body it will be
and keep dreaming
half awake

Distanced and Featureless (Or The Man With No Face)

my craving for you is like a dull constant hum always there somewhere in the back of my mind irregardless of what im doing. and it doesn't take much for it to get louder. for it to rise like the buzz of a million bees and be all i think about. you want me to see with no eyes, hear with no ears, taste with no tongue, and touch with no hands. what passion has a faceless man with no senses? what destiny has he except to disappear and hope that no one recalls he was there? you want me to be half alive with my heart forever steady, my bpm never rising. you want me to ignore, reject, and disdain this man who's insane about you. you want my beast to vanish and be replaced by a docile creature that jumps at the slightest noise. you claim you want me but i feel unwanted, an intimate friend treated like a stranger.

Limbo

how can i listen to the butterfly flutter of another's heart?
im apart
not a part
when im weighted down
by the sound of the pound of the beat of my aorta sorta
slows n then speeds up
knows what needs ta change
but my brain is scared
fight or flight
n i aint never been one to run
so i fight the feeling
the downhill pull of gravity
as fate get mad at me
n say im killin my odds
word to god
no lies the surprise is that i don't rise back up the incline
but im too shook of losin mine
crooked logic
shaky at the bottom
shoot it's ben fell through
but really i don't know what to do
cuz i feel myself losin you
n to be real
you kinda losin me
i seek to be free
but it would seem im too meek to be me

A Matter of Wanting

i don't want anyone
who don't want me
which make sense logically
im sorry to hit you wit this sad actuality
sorry to hit you wit facts
but i aint fuckin wit de actress
fuck hollywood
i was doin jolly good wit wat is
until i found out that is
was an isn't
thought the heart livin
but it's a zombie
ambercrombie and fitch
wit a fake smile
sittin on a pile of bullshit

A Train of Thought (Bad to Bueno)

underlined. undermined. undefined. low low cuz im under everything movin so slow. understand. underhand throw out the window all the wonder of us so all im left with is a wanderlust. explore. exit the gf turn her to an ex and it's on to the next. cuz we might be worthy of sightseeing when leaving the p-a-s-t, unless we drastically act in a manner differed from the norm act as jason bourne do other then we were trained to then even if the rain is blue we can smile at the sky, look each other in the eye and laugh until we are freezing cold. all i know is what i have must not grow old and dull. cuz ill never find a severed line that would cut as deep as this one. never find. never whine....never mind!

Unlocked Doors

mr. key misses mrs. mystery,
villian chillin on de door
but he want more.
she bliss to he
thoughts of girl swirl
so blissfully
sharp n crisp to he
like HD
highly detailed
definition
missin
mr. key misses mrs. mystery
she is to me as door is to he
are you keepin up?
realization sneakin up
reachin up
n smackina backa de head
like attacka de dead
return of the zombies
thoughta she surround me
all around me
closin in
she declothe
n him nah hesitate
ta do de same
retire attire
n drop it to da floor
he close to she
n he sorta wantin more
so they souls blend
as one
moon and sun
day n night
kid cudi
bounce to feel aright
blind to the rest of my senses
feelin you
allat make sense is
queen n king
in immortal dance
souls intertwined
it started wit a wine
n a sign
a wink
that was gone in the space of a blink
mr. key misses mrs. mystery
with whom his history
resides
without his angel
how's a man to fly?

Doing

curly headed girls
rule the world
make it twirl
n spin around
bringin bounce
to the sound
your hair curves round ya face
like ya body curves
round the space
that your in
sendin ripples
through the air
like a heat wave
your force is more
then any horse power
i don't want you
unless you want me to
not tryna force you in to
something you can't handle
break in like i was a vandal
i don't want to lay here
unless you invite me
only wanna hold you
if you'd like me to do it tightly
n i might be
the right one
but if you feelin left
leave me at the next opportunity
but real talk
im really feelin you n me
seein a future
wit the two of us
more then just
a good view of lust
i want you and only you
so baby lay back
n lemme do what i do
there are very few
who can read your mind
and go deep to find
what lays there
waiting for me
don't know yet
you just wait see